e he slept to death。 How I mourned and cried over it！ and who ever dreamed that it was anything but a mistake； that had made me give it the laudanum？ but it’s one of the few things that I’m glad of； now。 I am not sorry； to this day； he； at least； is out of pain。 What better than death could I give him； poor child！ After a while； the cholera came； and Captain Stuart died； everybody died that wanted to live；—and I；—I； though I went down to death’s door；—I lived！ Then I was sold； and passed from hand to hand； till I grew faded and wrinkled； and I had a fever； and then this wretch bought me； and brought me here；—and here I am！”
The woman stopped。 She had hurried on through her story； with a wild； passionate utterance； sometimes seeming to address it to Tom； and sometimes speaking as in a soliloquy。 So vehement and overpowering was the force with which she spoke； that； for a season； Tom was beguiled even from the pain of his wounds； and； raising himself on one elbow； watched her as she paced restlessly up and down； her long black hair swaying heavily about her； as she moved。
“You tell me；” she said； after a pause； “that there is a God；—a God that looks down and sees all these things。 May be it’s so。 The sisters in the convent used to tell me of a day of judgment； when everything is coming to light；—won’t there be vengeance； then！
“They think it’s nothing； what we suffer；—nothing； what our children suffer！ It’s all a small matter； yet I’ve walked the streets when it seemed as if I had misery enough in my one heart to sink the city。 I’ve wished the houses would fall on me； or the stones sink under me。 Yes！ and； in the judgment day； I will stand up before God； a witness against those that have ruined me and my children； body and soul！
“When I was a girl； I thought I was religious； I used to love God and prayer。 Now； I’m a lost soul； pursued by devils that torment me day and night； they keep pushing me on and on—and I’ll do it； too； some of these days！” she said； clenching her hand； while an insane light glanced in her heavy black eyes。 “I’ll send him where he belongs；—a short way； too；—one of these nights； if they burn me alive for it！” A wild； long laugh rang through the deserted room； and ended in a hysteric sob； she threw herself on the floor； in convulsive sobbing and struggles。
In a few moments； the frenzy fit seemed to pass off； she rose slowly； and seemed to collect herself。
“Can I do anything more for you； my poor fellow？” she said； approaching where Tom lay； “shall I give you some more water？”
There was a graceful and compassionate sweetness in her voice and manner； as she said this； that formed a strange contrast with the former wildness。
Tom drank the water； and looked earnestly and pitifully into her face。
“O； Missis； I wish you’d go to him that can give you living waters！”
“Go to him！ Where is he？ Who is he？” said Cassy。
“Him that you read of to me；—the Lord。”
“I used to see the picture of him； over the altar； when I was a girl；” said Cassy； her dark eyes fixing themselves in an expression of mournful reverie； “but； he isn’t here！ there’s nothing here； but sin and long； long； long despair！ O！” She laid her land on her breast and drew in her breath； as if to lift a heavy weight。
Tom looked as if he would speak again； but she cut him short； with a decided gesture。
“Don’t talk； my poor fellow。 Try to sleep； if you can。” And； placing water in his reach； and making whatever little arrangements for his comforts she could； Cassy left the shed。
Chapter 35
The Tokens
“And slight； withal； may be the things that bring
Back on the heart the weight which it would fling
Aside forever； it may be a sound；
A flower； the wind； the ocean； which shall wound；—
Striking the electric chain wherewith we’re darkly bound。”
Childe Harold’s Pilgrimage； Can。 4。
The sitting…room of Legree’s establishment was a large； long room； with a wide； ample fireplace。 It had once been hung with a showy and expensive paper； which now hung mouldering； torn and discolored； from the damp walls。 The place had that peculiar sickening； unwholesome smell； compounded of mingled damp； dirt and decay； which one often notices in close old houses。 The wall…paper was defaced； in spots； by slops of beer and wine； or garnished with chalk memorandums； and long sums footed up； as if somebody had been practising arithmetic there。 In the fireplace stood a brazier full of burning charcoal； for； though the weather was not cold； the evenings always seemed damp and chilly in that great room； and Legree； moreover； wanted a place to light his cigars； and heat his water for punch。 The ruddy glare of the charcoal displayed the confused and unpromising aspect of the room；—saddles； bridles； several sorts of harness； riding…whips； overcoats； and various articles of clothing； scattered up and down the room in confused variety； and the dogs； of whom we have before spoken； had encamped themselves among them； to suit their own taste and convenience。
Legree was just mixing himself a tumbler of punch； pouring his hot water from a cracked and broken…nosed pitcher； grumbling； as he did so；
“Plague on that Sambo； to kick up this yer row between me and the new hands！ The fellow won’t be fit to work for a week； now；—right in the press of the season！”
“Yes； just like you；” said a voice； behind his chair。 It was the woman Cassy； who had stolen upon his soliloquy。
“Hah！ you she…devil！ you’ve come back； have you？”
“Yes； I have；” she said； coolly； “come to have my own way； too！”
“You lie； you jade！ I’ll be up to my word。 Either behave yourself； or stay down to the quarters； and fare and work with the rest。”
“I’d rather； ten thousand times；” said the woman； “live in the dirtiest hole at the quarters； than be under your hoof！”
“But you are under my hoof； for all that；” said he； turning upon her； with a savage grin； “that’s one comfort。 So； sit down here on my knee； my dear； and hear to reason；” said he； laying hold on her wrist。
“Simon Legree； take care！” said the woman； with a sharp flash of her eye； a glance so wild and insane in its light as to be almost appalling。 “You’re afraid of me； Simon；” she said； deliberately； “and you’ve reason to be！ But be careful； for I’ve got the devil in me！”
The last words she whispered in a hissing tone； close to his ear。
“Get out！ I believe； to my soul； you have！” said Legree； pushing her from him； and looking uncomfortably at her。 “After all； Cassy；” he said； “why can’t you be friends with me； as you used to？”
“Used to！” said she； bitterly。 She stopped short；—a word of choking feelings； rising in her heart； kept her silent。
Cassy had always kept over Legree the kind of influence that a strong； impassioned woman can ever keep over the most brutal man； but； of late； she had grown more and more irritable and restless； under the hideous yoke of her servitude； and her irritability； at times； broke out into raving insanity； and this liability made her a sort of object of dread to Legree； who had that superstitious horror of insane persons which is common to coarse and uninstructed minds。 When Legree brought Emmeline to the house； all the smoulde